snow soul: feeling beautiful.
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those in the know say:
double-mindedness shows a lack of wisdom.
it's not double-mindedness.
it's wavering between:
believing what you say.
believing what i feel.
do i love myself?
do i feel beautiful?
the wrestling comes mainly:
around those who use harsh words on me.
two sides of perfection:
neither is valid.
it is far kinder to tell myself:
i am okay.
i am good enough.
i am okay.
i am good enough.
i can no longer just myself by your standards.
i am trying hard:
to make my words clear.
to not care if others hear me singing loudly.
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Comments
Yes, you ARE beautiful!
no: i never sing with my fingers in my ears.
i belt it out LOUDLY for all to hear. even myself.
and YOU are beautiful, also.
i often wonder just why it is that we struggle so with accepting our own beauty and abilities as adults when children believe in themselves so completely.
i guess it means that we need to learn to be more childlike-- innocent, awestruck, and filled with wonder.
we need to amaze ourselves more often.
i am amazed by your beauty!!
xxxx