this is how it was today.

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even after a long soak in a steaming tub of water, reading for an hour 

and trying to soak away my pains, the bone-aches and heart-aches and muscle stiffness from the past day, 

i was not in any shape to be a friend to anyone, today. 

i didn't want to talk. 

i didn't want to hold hands. 

i didn't want any sweetness or love to brush up against my cold hard spirit. 

i felt like jumping the bus or hiding under the bed. 

but the universe blessed me with a feather in a wad of nesting. 

it must've been carried by a bird or on the wind. 

it was outside a store wherein i ran into an old friend. we hugged. she cried. 

when i walked away, there was the nested feather. 

kind of a sign, wouldn't you say? 

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life is sweet. 

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