scenes from living life with allies.

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So, here I am, sorting out a few online journal tech matters, 

sipping Jesus chai, 

re-composing the entry I just trashed because there was some weird system situation

going on. 

The sun is shining brightly in a most heavenly way, 

and it's filtering through the windows, 

warming the dogs where they lie, 

warming my heart where it lies as I compose this post. 

I was going to be all cheesy and happy-sounding, which I do somewhat feel right now, 

but I'll simply speak from my honest self to you. 

Something that came to me intuitively and really stuck in my mind

is this: 

some days I wake up and life feels all sideways inside of me, 

I'm not all happy-happy-joy-joy right off the bat, 

and rather than pretend and try to present myself as "OK"...

rather than try to make everyone around me feel OK or present myself as OK to them, 

I think I'll just simply be. 

Some days my empath self takes over and I forget to think about what's real in life. 

Recently I learned some new tools to help me focus on Truth, 

first depriving myself of what is not where I wanna be in the scheme of things, 

emptying myself out, 

feeling that emptiness, 

then asking myself what is true - ? 

That truth... TRUTH... is what I allow to permeate every bit of my cellular structure. 

And, now, we are off into the snowy forests, searching for more amazingness, 

because, after all, 

I will be exactly as happy as I decide to be. 

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