adding it all up.

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 you know: 

i thought i was done with writing about the pain. 

but: 

yesterday. 

upon waking. 

my skeleton hurt so terribly bad. 
with every step:

lightning strikes arose in my knee

and extended out through the tips of my fingers. 

life ain't no good when i'm hurting this bad.

 i read these words.

and then: 
a friend at work asked me a simple question.

which led to 

1 + 1 + 1 = another answer. 

i find myself saying quite often:

it sucks to be me. 

but:
at least i'm learning. 

about self. needs. body. mind. 

as i sat down to journal: 

all the aches. 

all the pains. 

heart and soul and skeleton. 

it all poured out onto the paper.

i felt caught. 

caught between this world and the next to come.  

one glance upward let me know the sun was shining. 

the answers come. 

sometimes not as quickly as i wish. 

but they do come....

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