within me. around me.

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i wonder sometimes. 

i wonder: 
how did everyone else get so smart, so wise, and where was i when the smart train loaded up for a ride down the tracks.

i wonder: 
why, so late in life, am i figuring out what makes me feel good about myself. 

i'm not really afraid of a devil or forces of evil. 
what makes me really afraid is the darkness that dwells in my mind. 

this old world just keeps on spinning, and it helps me get out of my own dark thoughts 
by going out into the light of this most magnificent place in which i live, 
this alpine hinterland pencilfox acreage. 

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life is a journey. 

life is so very very grand. 

Comments

Farm and Field said…
It is never to late to learn. Comparing your journey to others' is a waste of precious emotional energy, a near act of violence against your own timing. You are growing, learing, stretching and finding your voice; honor that, and give yourself credit for it.
Love you.
MrsLittleJeans said…
I second Brandi's comment, and will apply to myself too..thank you
LIfe is indeed a journey...good to see you lovely friend xx
Cat said…
You are courageous and brave!
Never forget that
all is as it should be
and comparing ourselves to others is never a good idea

love and light my friend
prairiegirl said…
Hey. You didn't miss the train.
You just hopped the caboose as it was rolling on down the tracks.
From back there, you linger longer, and the view is way better.
Please hug yourself, right this instant.
XOo
pencilfox said…
alrighty, then, my dear girlfriends.
your rebukes are well-received.
i guess i knew better than to compare....but i feel rather silly, rather LATE. you know??

i love you each, i love you all.
Allisunny S. said…
I call it 'the boat to China'. I lament how it has left me behind and I will never see what it's passengers witness, the magic and exotic-ness. These are cruelties we create out of ego - they are best set free to find their own happiness or boats as it were - out lives are too precious to measure against another's. love to you!!!! Xoxoxoxoxoxo
Allisunny S. said…
So many grammar mistakes - darn quick fingers and autocorrect!! ;)
pencilfox said…
oh, absoLUTEly!! xoxoxoxo

pencilfox said…
*love you* too for speaking out honestly to me.

pencilfox said…
good to see you, too, my lovely friend. xx
be good to yourself and i'll do the same for myself.
pencilfox said…
oh my gosh. this journey. it's so amazing yet so difficult at times.
all is as it should be, true that.

love and light to you, too, my friend....
pencilfox said…
i'm waving to you from the back of the train, holding on to the railing of the caboose.
i hugged myself.
now, hug YOURself. right this instant.
xoxo