finding rest. or, i used to be blue, now i'm green.

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although it's only two weeks that i have been on enforced healing time, 
it seems much longer.
i'm wrapping my head around 
this is my time -- 
actually falling into a routine which begins with tea
and involves exercising twice a day. 
i wear green, i drink green, i surround myself with green.  
many times during any given day, i fall into silence, not speaking, trying to quiet 
the crazy stream of feelings and wonderings which pass through my thoughts. 
i have given myself over to journaling 
instead of allowing the craziness to take over my life. 
sometimes i wish to just lay and rest, 
and that is what milo and i did quite recently. 
i don't really know what the future holds
but then again, none of us have any guarantees in this life. 

so much work, this healing. 
but….it's good work. 

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