...and the confirmations roll in.

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You see, it's like this:

it was time for me to change. 

And please know this: 

 I speak for no one other than myself. 

There have been many instances in the recent and not-so-recent past wherein I have felt 

edgy and uncomfortable and left with seeking what I already feel deep inside me. 

What do I really need in my life, in my existence on a day-to-day basis? 

I go to church. I go to recovery meetings. I go to lunch with friends. 

But, yet, all the spilling-forth of what I am feeling inside me swirls above me as I watch myself 

spin into upward and downward spirals of 

what the fuck do I really want ??

I know for a fact (because it feels REAL to me) that I was born with a goodly amount of 

God-knowledge and intuition in my cells. Yet, why am I feeling a need to continue searching  ??

And, why do I feel the need to continually speak my need over and over again ??

I weep a bit when I speak my Truths. 

But, as the saying goes: 

speak the truth even if your voice shakes. 

If you wish to speak with me, I'm just a phone call away, one text away. 

Other than that, drive out here and holler loud for me. 

I am most likely up on Coyote Hill, in my prayer flag forest.

If you are brave enough, 

walk up the hill and continue to call out my name. 

You'll find me. 

Better yet, 

you'll find me-n-God. 

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