Pencil'd thoughts to self, and others, if you need them.

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 Hey. 

Been leaning muchly into how and what I am feeling because I have had some anxiety which left me feeling the need to skeedaddle away from it and the peoples who bring it to me. Pressing words of constriction and expansion into my awareness because gut lies to me, cannot count on what my gut tells me. These words, these feelings, constriction and expansion, speak louder to me than what gut says, because I can actually feel them, each one, separately or lined up one after the other. 

Shared these words with my Physiotherapist on Tuesday since I have been listening to my body, feeling tight fascia in the left side of my lower body, which believe it or not up-and-left-me when I let go of frenetic energy lay’d on me from someone I needed to put space between me and them. The tight fascia released. Just like that [*snap*] ...

My Physiotherapist said “I’m gonna steal your words and make them mine too” and I said “not my words… they were spoken by a friend.” 

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