what i want for the new year.

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sometimes,  

when i realize my losses,

when i gratefully count my blessings, 

i don't know what to say about this being "a new year". 

there's not much i want to change about myself. 

i'm especially driven, 

but you already know that if you have read my manifesto. 

i'm surrounded by eternally bubbly and happy sanguine-istas. 

i'm just not that way. 

i know how to say "life is good," 

but i'm a beaver at heart, head-down, tasking the dam. 

one day at a time. 

not just because this is a new year 

but because each day is special.

i'd also like to say that there's enough negativity and hatefulness

in the universe, 

so this is what i want, and this is what i'm going to work on:

remaining positive and looking for the good. 

i fight for the truth, and i'm a wise old woman in so many ways. 

as i age, i realize it's my right and my privilege to speak out 

when i see others wronged. 

so. here i am. one foot in front of the other. seeking truth, challenging my mind 

to not even go there, if you know what i mean. 

and with that said: 

as i re-program myself, i'm doing this. 

HEY. 

have i told you lately??

life is good. 

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